The Zen of Surgery

Focused.  Workers sacrifice their bodies for a greater cause.  My favorite surgeons are cool, calm and collected.  They try to create the best possible environment in which to work and then accept and work with whatever circumstances present themselves.  It is really quite impressive, almost (gasp!) spiritual!!

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My happy art!

I (breathe)…do not (BREATHE)…have to apply for financial aid!!  Of course, my position as an intern at Southampton Hospital on Long Island, NY through the osteopathic residency match has not been confirmed yet, so I shouldn’t get too excitied.  However, my chances are really good of matching there and signing a contract before the end of February.  I actually received a call from the DO in charge of the program while I was driving across New Mexico.  How cool is that?  He was confirming that Southampton was the right place for me.  So, no more financial aid packets to fill out!  Hallelujah!  Of course, if this was all that was making me happy, it would not last long.  I’ve been incorporating the Dalai Lama’s teachings into my life with the help of Ehkert Tolle’s advice/wisdom from the “The New Earth”.  Now, in the sunny state of California, my inner light is glowing better than it ever has and I’m ready to take on the world!!  Okay, I’ll start with doing my best at my surgery rotation…  🙂

Conflicted

I’ve listened to “The Art of Happiness” at least 6-7 times now. It’s an audio book written by a western psychiatrist who is trying to relay the Dalai Lama’s wisdom to a western society in order to help people be happier. I could quote numerous stories or pearls of wisdom from the book, but I (myself) can’t seem to live up to these great words of wisdom. It makes me so happy to hear the Dalai Lama speak. I love his expressions, insights and hearing how people react to him (open up, feel inspired, etc), however, listening to him in and of itself is not going to change me. Ironically, I desire to listen to him and when I can’t, I suffer, which is exactly what he is teaching his audience NOT to do. He teaches desire as the root of our suffering. I know my next step is to start meditating and experiencing my higher self and understand universal truth, but I’m resistant, I’m lazy and now I’m grumpy. Hrumph!

“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change those I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”

Change of direction, again.

It feels good to be posting again.  Of course, it is also a sign that I’m sure about where my life is going…

Neurology is fascinating, but do I really want to spend 4 years of my life in residency +1 year doing an OMM fellowship when all I want to do is manipulation?  While I was at Michigan State, I was impressed by many things, but something that DID NOT impress me were the “egos”.  Not everyone had an ego and the people who were intelligent enough to  qualify for ego-status, were actually the humble ones!  I went through the interview because I was there, but I have no intention of going there for residency.  I probably won’t get in anyway since the competition is fairly robust.

Sigh.  So, this leaves me scurrying around at the last minute hoping to get interviews at places I haven’t rotated.  I’ve turned my attention on to the one thing that brings me joy, a sense of satisfaction with patient encounters and what I plan on doing for the rest of my life: osteopathy.  I think it is unfortunate that the residency programs for Osteopathy are listed under the “medical term” of neruomuscular medicine (NMM).  God forbid we actually use the term osteopathy in the title…

The ironic DO difference

Observation: Medical history taking is vital for medical diagnosis and treatment, so much so that we are trained and grilled to make our presentations are concise and meaningful with a specified format.  We are initially trained to believe that we need to write down what the patients says, but as we become better trained, we learn to include the patient’s answers to our diagnosis-directed questions, trying to fit the patient’s complaint into a box.  Interestingly, osteopathic diagnosis could almost care less about the history because so often the complaint is not located near the responsible restriction.  The icing that tops it off is that DO’s are known for their ability to listen!  The irony is truly giggle-provoking!

Have a fabulous Thanksgiving!  I’ll be in Cleveland, OH with a good friend of mine.  🙂

The Good side of the Republican Party

Since so many of my previous posts were political, I’m going to make this post political as well.  A good friend of mine who lives in Vermont opened my eyes to the good side of the Republican party last summer when I first discovered Obama and enjoyed discussing politics.  She said that Republicans, in their original form, were against making excessive rules and regulations, and I think this was in response to the overwhelming suppression and regulation forced on Americans by England…I have some reading to do.  ANYWAY, my point here was that I am having some desire of dysregulation of the medical system.

I’m in the midst of residency interview season and, although I love neurology, I’m having doubts about where I want my life to go and how to get there appropriately.  I daydream about how osteopathic education was when AT Still first open the American School of Osteoapthy.  I crave the simplicity of learning anatomy and manipulation and then applying this knowledge to every patient.  Sign.  I’ve also been reading a personality book and I believe I have the type of personality that can get lost in daydreams, so I try not to dwell for too long.  Why does the medical world have to be SO complicated, SO specialized and COMPLETELY run by guidelines derived from evidence-based medicine and “expert” opinion?  At times I also dream about going to another country (or the rural-est of rural locations in the US) and setting up a practice where there are no regulations, no records, no equipment; where my hands, heart and mind are the only tools I have to help people.  Oops!  There I go dreaming again.

Don’t forget to VOTE!!

Takin’ it back with Barack, Jack!

It appears that all my spirituality is going towards politics these days!

Hate to see the nation being run by a hack
Dig the situation that he dug in Iraq
Half the population wants to give him the sack
And now he’s lookin’ round for somebody else to attack
We need somebody great to get us back on the track

So we’re takin’ it back with Barack, Jack!

Choo Choo, Change to believe in
Woo woo, we can achieve it
Choo Choo, Change to believe in
Takin’ it back with Barack, Jack!

Now that global warming is a matter of fact
The only real question is just how to react
The new administration needs the guts to enact
Drastic legislation, leave the planet intact
We can’t be foolin’ round with some Republican Mac

So we’re takin’ it back with Barack, Jack!

Choo Choo….

He only gets his money from your regular macs
Doesn’t take a penny from some whackity PAC’s
For bringin’ folk together he’s the man with the knack
And he’ll supply the hope and inspiration we lack
Cause he’s the best we got and did I ….mention he’s black?

So we’re takin’ it back with Barack, Jack!

Who would have thought? Humor in Politics!


Heaven

I don’t think I’ve ever been so ecstatically happy as I am right now, doing Neurology. It is nerdy, fast-paced with enough down time to think and enough “pimping” for me to reveal my knowledge-base and provide incentive for me to study more and more and MORE! God I wish I had been a Neuroanatomy TA. Oh well. Every Weds the Neuro residents get together to go over clinical neuroanatomy. And the attending is fantastic: knowledgeable, funny and respectful. He’s pretty much perfect. The rotation is perfect. Now the only question is I a perfect match? I hope so. Praying: “Please let me pass my family practice rotation so I don’t have to explain the circumstances around a failed rotation.”

Oo oo oo! i’m going swing dancing tonight! I’s right down the road from where I’m living! I’m so excited!!

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